I took a really long walk today and I realized how much it did for my mentality. Just getting to walk and bask in sunlight, listening to music and thinking clearly. I don’t need and I never needed all of the things and the people I thought I needed.
I gave up on the grand idea that there is a soul mate for everyone. This is because people change all the time, for better and for worse. I think that people are not compatible, but their personalities are. And personalities can change drastically over time. However, love is something that stays for a while, like a stubborn stain on a table cloth. I read somewhere that you’ll never stop caring about someone you’ve loved. I think it’s so true, and there’s so much beauty in knowing that you are capable of loving someone so much. And it gives you confidence that you are a good person and have a lot of love to give to the next person who comes along.
Something happened the other night that made me realize what really made me happy. And it wasn’t fancy outings, gifts, expensive food… I was feeling a little bit sad, and then this person asked me, almost frantically, “What is the most embarrassing moment in your life? What are your greatest fears? Tell me stories about your childhood.” Getting to talk about life with someone in general, happy and not- so- happy memories, deep, raw conversation… My soul felt so replenished that night. I slept with a smile on my face, knowing that at the end of the day, the right decision is always the decision that you made using your heart.
